Espresso

Saw my ex colleague in Italy said he was sitting at the coffee shop in this new year eve..
Hmmm..
It remind me the day when I had my espresso in Malaysia 3 months ago and Japan 1 week ago.

Both also same taste..
Taste like the espresso that I make in my own house.
(I bought an espresso maker from Italy)
What is that??
If I can make it in my house why I still need to go coffee shop??
I promise myself not to order espresso in Japan unless I meet the coffee shop that can convince me.

I found the Italian ice-cream, GROM in Japan.
My next target is to find a real Italian coffee shop in Japan!!

There is no fear in love

There is no fear in love;
but perfect love casts out fear,
because fear involves torment.
But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.
1 John 4:18

Being a Christian more than 10 years.
Going to church from 5 years old.
But I never really know the meaning of this verse.
Today,
On my way go to Toshiba training centre,
God spoke to me.
There is no fear in love.
But perfect love cast out fear.

I believe in this season,
God want me to experience this.

Finally, I understand this verse.

God = Love (1 John 4:16)
Fear = Unsecured (common sense)
Love ≠ Fear (1 John 4:18)
∴ Love = Secure
In God = No Fear
With God = 100% secure

We always see this in drama.
The girl tell the boy,
I don't feel secure with u.
I believe it is Bcz the guy not loving the girl enough.
I means real love with action.

Anyway, I believe God love me enough.
And whatever happen, I have no fear!
I think the word have came in a right time.
What a great promise God have reminded me!
With this promise,
God had cast out the fear in me.
Lastly,
As a son of God,
I not only need to be felt secured,
But ought to let other feel secured too.

TV

After 1 and the half month of thinking..
Finally I made up my mind to buy the TV.
I went to survey the price and model yesterday but failed to buy it..
Because in Yodobashi, the TV that I wish to buy was out of stock!
In Bic Camera, there was stock but the price is 6000yen more expensive.
So, I planned to postpone my plan and buy it during Christmas or new year.

Today,
I planned to go for shopping but when I board on the train and heading to the mall,
only I knew that the mall closed on 8pm.
And I saw the time, 5pm....

Sigh...
So I changed my plan and head toward Kawasaki to see the TV.
I reached Bic Camera and talk to the sale man that Yodobashi was selling at 31800yen.
And he said can sell me at that price too, and immediate can get the TV!!
Wow!!
How great is that, w/o further thinking,
I bought the TV.

The reason I chose this one was,
it was the slimmest TV among the 19" TV.
It is a fact or not?
I'm not sure, I just felt that It was the slimmest.
Toshiba is 1000yen cheaper than it,
but it was too thick for me.. =P
I want a small TV,
and It fit me! 僕にびったり！
And the design is also cool.

So, enjoying my TV now, with Subtitle.. =)

Well, I guess I forgot to mention my TV model.

SHARP AQUOS LC-19K3!!! =)

I'm OLD

I realized I'm OLD.
Ya, I means no longer young anymore.

Today is Friday!
I went to church as usual.
But I'm getting closer to my new friends over there.
Doesn't it sound great?
Once I get closer to them,
I realize one thing...

They are so YOUNG!!

This is a real young people church!
Many of them are below 20 years old!
Man, I'm OLD inside the group!

It can't be,
but it's the truth.

It's hard to accept,
but I've to accept.

Time pass,
what had you done Yu Xuan??

Where is your fire, passion and vision?
What is your main barrier man?
Language?
Come on man,
speak out.
**Now is good time for me to improve my English.
I can either speak English or Japanese in my church,
think positively, it's really good!

Come on,
Is time to wake up,
do something great for God!
Make something meaningful in your life.

Merry Christmas!!

Christmas is just around the corner.
The Christmas atmosphere in Tokyo is really good!
Although it's not a Christian country,
you can see the Christmas decoration everywhere.

People are busying on their Christmas shopping,
People are busying on the Christmas gift preparation,
People are busying on decorating their house,
People are busying to have a Christmas party,
People are so busy about the Christmas.

Like us, are so busy to find and see the great Christmas decoration in Tokyo.
Like us, had received the Christmas gift from teacher.
Like us, start to think what should we do on the coming Christmas Saturday.


But at the end,
It's not about how great is your Christmas decoration?
It's not about how great is your Christmas party?
It's not about how much you spend on your Christmas shopping?
It's not about how many Christmas present do you receive?


You know how the name, Christmas came from?
It came from the late Old English, Cristes Maesse,
or translate to modern English is Mass of Christ.
Mass of Christ!
Ya, it is all about the Christ, Jesus Christ!


I will going to have my Christmas in a really nice place, Tokyo.
In fact, the Sin Chew Daily in Malaysia had reported the great Christmas decoration in Shiodome, the Blue Ocean.
Ya, I knew I going to have a great Christmas over here.

But, I reminded myself.
Always know the true meaning of Christmas.
It's neither about Santa Clause nor Christmas tree.
But it's all about my saviour, Jesus Christ.
I want to give thanks and remembered what he had done for me and you.
Thanks you Lord, for giving you only Son to die for us!
Ya, it's ur birthday Christ.
It's not an unknown, X, birthday.

X'mas??

No,

It's CHRISTMAS!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!

フィレンツェ

今日私はフィレンツェについて話します。
フィレンツェはローマの北にあります。
フィレンツェはルネサンスの始めたどころです。
世界の中でたくさん有名な人の郷里はフィレンツェです。
例えば、レオナルド.ダ.ヴィンチやミケランジェロなとです。
フィレンツェで有名な物はポンテヴェキオやサンタ.マリア大聖堂やダビデ像なとです。
イタリア人にとってフィレンツェはイタリアで一番綺麗な町です。
フィレンツェで生活をするのはとても安らかです。
人々の生活は楽しそうです。
もし機会があったら、
是非フィレンツェで一、二年間に住んでみたいです。

ベニス

日本語の勉強のために、
私は毎日作文を書かなければなりません。
前、私は日記を書きましたが、
私の生活はつまらないので、
日記の内容も大体同じです。

今日から、私は特別の題目にします。
私はヨーロッパについて書きます。
長い文はではありませんが、短い分です。
ですから内容も少しいだけあります。
実は私は長い文が書けますが、
私の作文は短いの方がいいと思うので。。。

じゃ、これは私の今日の作文です。


今日私はベニスについて話します。
ベニスはイタリアの北にあって島です。
ベニスは島が118あって、
川は177があって、
橋は401があります。
もし地図に見て、
ベニスの形は魚に似っています。
建物の土台はほとんど石ですが、
ベニスのは木です。
昔のベニス人は本当にすごかったです。
ベニスで有名な物はリアルト橋やサン・マルコ広場やゴンドラなどです。
ベニスの乗り物は船だけです。

皆は多分ベニスだけしていますが、
実はベニスの隣の島も大変綺麗です。
特にブラノです。
ブラノである家の色は全部特別です。
いろいろな色があるので、
とても面白いし、綺麗です。
私はブラノはベニスより綺麗だと思います。
もし機会があったら、是非もう一度ベニスに行きたいです。

健康について

A lots of thing happened last week.
I had been called to see the doctor due a X-Ray.
The X-Ray show that I was not healthy.
When the nurse try to explain to me in Japanese,
I immediately told her, is it TB?
Yes, exactly!!
I knew it immediately bcz I saw the same X-Ray 4 years ago.
I had the same problem 4 years a go and I went to the medical check for several times in Malaysia.
But the result was -ve, which was I'm healthy.
I thought that's just some mistake made by doctor and never thought about it again.
In fact, I didn't suffer from TB too.

Well, now the history is going to retake again.
But this time is no longer RM15 for a checking.
I have the health insurance with me so I only need to pay the 30%.
Luckily man!!

But..

I went to Toshiba Hospital for several times and the 30% had cost me a total of 33000yen (RM1240).

Finally I found that having an insurance is very important! lol

This time of checking is very details where I went through 3 times of blood test, 1 time of CT scan, 1 time of stomach liquid bio test, 1 time of Lung washing, 2 time of ECG and etc...
The result so far show that I don't suffer from TB but the actual result which is the bio test need to wait another 7 weeks!
So, I have to wear mask for this 7 weeks.. @.@
I hope that I am genki, just like what I look like.. =P
Lord, bless me, protect me and heal me by the Name of Jesus Christ! Amen!!

Ok, this one done.
Another one is my right eye failed the hearing test.
But I think I should have to pass the test.
May be the condition of the place was a bit noisy or the method of wearing the headphone was incorrect.
So I can't hear the sound.

Ok, now come to the one I really worry about.
That is my blood sugar is quite high, around 97!
The limit is 99 and I just less 2 from that!!
OMG! I don't want to have diabetes!!
(High blood sugar will lead to diabetes right?, If I'm wrong, plz correct me. I will be very happy to hear the NO!)
My grandpa and father suffered from diabetes.
I knew I also will have the potential but Lord, not at this time.
I am 23 years old now!!
Pray, pray and pray..
Have to do something with it!

教会について。。。

Five years ago..
I went to City Harvest Church KL alone..
I know nobody, and I actually don't know where the church was..
Hardly got a cab in Sunway Pyramid, and my journey in CHCKL began..
Ps Kong, Ps Kevin..
Ooh God, they are such a wonderful and great leaders!

Tomorrow,
history is gonna to repeat..
I will go to Jesus Lifehouse in Yokohama, Alone..
I felt reluctant,
I have a very weird feeling inside my heart.
Is this a right church for me?
I ask this question myself for 1 year when I was in CHCKL.
Now it will happen again.
I hate to ask this,
I hate to have the doubt in my heart.
You know how much I wish there is a Methodist church near Tsurumi?
Traditional for me is a guarantee.
Or there is a CHC affiliate church near Tsurumi?
But sadly, the answer is NO.. =(

I have browse through the Jesus Lifehouse website.
In fact, it look quite same with CHC.
I really look forward to join the service tomorrow night!
Lord, guide me..
Holy Spirit, let me have a discerning mind !

給料日！

Today I don't feel like want to update my blog.
But today is a special day,
so I have to leave something here.

Today, 25th Nov, mark this date down!
Today is the first day I received my first "official" salary in my life!
Receiving of the salary also indicate that I have came to Japan for a month!
Time just passed by silently....

Well, the salary is more than what I expect.
Because this is the first month and a lot of taxes are not deducted yet.
Am I happy?
Supposedly I should be happy now.
But I'm just normal.
No think of what to buy.
No think of spend it.

Of cause..
I will do my shopping.
I will go to travel.
I will buy TV etc.

But what is in my mind is,
I should learn to manage my finance well.
I need to learn and use my money wisely.
Lord, have favour on ur Son,
Let him continue walk in the right path.
Amen!

Let talk about Rubbish

Let talk about rubbish..
Rubbish mention here is not something nonsense,
Rubbish mention here is real Rubbish!

First day I came to Japan,
I had been told by my dorm master to separate the rubbish.
It has few types,
1. Plastic
2. Paper
3. Burnable Gabbage
4. Non-burnable Gabbage
5. Spray Can
6. Dry-Cell Battery
7. Cans, Bottles
8. Small Metal Items
9. Used Clothes
10. Food
Last but not least
11. Oversize Garbage (this required appointment and fee is required)

What the hell is this?
Can you imagine how many dustbin I need to put in my room?
The weird, very weird thing is they don't have general dustbin!
What the hell??!!

When I trim my hair, cut my nail, sweep my floor etc..
All this rubbish where can I throw?
Till now I still don't know and this rubbish still inside my room.. =.="
In the office where I attend my Japanese class,
they not even have the dustbin for plastic..
I need to put the plastic inside my pocket and throw it after I reach my room..
Ooh Japanese,
I respect you all!!

Thing make me excited in Tokyo

Came to Tokyo for more than 2 weeks dy..
Honestly, My feeling is just normal..
Nothing make me too excited..
Nothing will make me "WOW"..
I also feel weird about it..
It is Tokyo man!
Why i'm not excited about it??
Hmmmm......

I think..
Personally I think like this..
Perhaps of the past experience I have in Europe..
The first day I went to visit in Rome is collosseum!
Wow!! Man, I was stunned!!
I just want to say,
Tokyo just a city of fashion..
Which will cost u lot of $$ to shop!
It just can't compare to an ancient city like Rome..

The only thing make me excited in here is not skiing trip in January..
Is not the tasty ramen, sushi, sashimi..
Is not the great and high technology building..
Is not the great fashion sense in the city..
Is not anything about the city nor japan..

One thing make me excited is I knew japan got a shop called GROM!!
The best ice-cream shop in Italy.
I tasted once in Florence!
It was so Great!
I really wish to eat the gelato again..
But I found no one on Malaysia..
Now I found one in Tokyo and it is the best in Italy somomore!
Wow! I just can't wait to get one now!!!


p/s: I'm a person who like history..
The only place I wish to visit in japan is not Hokkaido but Kyoto.
I believe from the day I see this city,
I will change my mindset toward Japan and start to fall in love in this city!
Looking forward to see this happen..

高尾山の紅葉

在马来西亚，
一年中都呆在33度左右的日子里。

在日本就不一样啦。
这里有四季。
春夏秋冬，
各季节有不同的美景。
而我，
这次一定不会在放过这次机会。
来吧，四季玩透透！
春天，看樱花。
夏天，去海边。
秋天，看红叶。
冬天，去滑雪。

今天，
完成了人生中必做的一件事，
看红叶！（红色的枫叶）
感觉上，
好像生命中，
又上了一级，
有提升了一级。
啊哈哈...
当然，
这不能和世界级的威尼斯，巴黎相比，
但还是很开心！=)

高尾山，
顾名思义，
就是一座山嘛。
我们就是爬山去看红叶了！
一路上，美景尽收眼帘。
当然，最美的就是红、黄色的枫叶了。
不过这不像电影中，
一对情侣，在一大片黄色的枫叶树中相遇。
风吹时，还会有枫叶在空中飘动。
这里就是这里一棵，那里一棵。
有时就这里四五棵，那里两三棵这样。
闲...@.@

但是，还是拍了很多张照片。
期待下星期的小旅行。=)

日本について話す。

Japan is a country that everybody look up for.
We want to work in here.
We want to climb the Mt Fuji.
We want to walked through the Lavender Garden in Hokkaido.
We want to experience the magical hot spring.
We want to buy every fashionable clothes.
We want to get the latest gadget and technology.
We want to stand in the heart of Ginza, to become a fashionable man.
We want to see the charming sakura.
We want to...
There are so many thing we wish to do in Japan.
At least once in our lives.

Today, I just received my ATM card.
Well, ATM is not I want to talk about.
Since the first day I went to the office,
I had seen a mountain of 'symbols' that I don't understand.
From the most important working contract to the least important food.
Everything in Japanese and I just can't read those 'lost symbols'.
Today, I received the ATM and the explanation, again all in Japanese.
And of cause I don't understand.
This make me felt like an idiot, don't know where am I heading to.
Living inside a country like this make me crazy.
My life is full with uncertainty.
I scared one day, what if I didn't understand the explanation well and I make a silly mistake which I not suppose to.
What if there is a real important message inside those lost symbol and I don't know about it?
What if I suppose to do something according to the explanation and I didn't do it?
What if...What if...
There are too many uncertainties with me right now and more to come in this next few months time.
A person always holding a vision like me,
suddenly lost my direction.

God, let Your light shine on me.
Let Your light be the guide in my life.
I just want to be a sheep, following every step that You lead me.

First 9 days in Japan

I think it's time for me to update my life in Japan.
I have been gone through a not busy, but no time to rest week in Japan.

1st day in Japan.
A typhoon day, Typhoon No 4 came to Tokyo on Sat night.
Rain for a whole day.
So far it was the coldest day for me in Japan.
And my gf's bro lent me the broadband and handphone.
Yoo...my first Japanese handphone! It was cool!!

2nd day, went Kawasaki with senior.
Went to the Original Daiso, haha...

3rd day, 1st day went to the main office of Toshiba.
I like the lift in the office which only took few second to reach the 39th floor!
Cool..
Signed a lot of contracts which I not really understand because most of them in Japanese..

4th day, another day to main office.
Again, sign a lot of contracts.
After that went to immigration office and Odaiba.
Yeah, a great bridge in Tokyo where couple will date over there.
I like the atmosphere there.. =)

5th day, the 1st national holiday for me in Japan, the cultural day.
Went to apply iPhone 4 which took me an hour for the registration.

6th day, went to HRD, Toshiba training center.
The whole day I'm playing my iPhone 4, it was so cool!!
And in fact almost everyone of my class were doing the same thing as me..
everybody here own an iPhone 4, isn't that a cool thing?? lol..

7th day, the first day of my lesson.
My new sensei is called watanabe sensei.
She is a nice and friendly sensei, so far...haha..
And I realize a lot of thing I not learnt in Malaysia although this was a revision day.
OMG....this is not revision man.....

8th day, Went to Ramen Show 2010 in Tokyo!
Wow, there were thousand of thousand of people queueing up for the ramen's ticket and the ramen.
I spent around 1 hour for the queue and finally got my first ramen in Japan!
Yes, with no doubt, it was so delicious!
Then went jalan-jalan at the garden there.
Japan's garden has it's own characteristic which is different from European's garden.
Which one I like?
Hmmm...I would say Europe, haha...
After that went to Shibuya!
The most happening place I had ever visit!
I had never seen thousands of people crossing the junction, it was so COOL!!!
I hate the crowded place but crowded Shibuya make me fall in love with it.
It's was so amazing.
People went there shopping, I just feel like going there feeling the atmosphere, taking the picture....
Anyway, this is Japan, a modern city, a city full with neon light.
I like historical place, so I not as excited as when I was in Rome.
In fact, I do feel a bit lazy to go out, haha...

9th day, a resting day in hostel.
Bought a dono how many hand's refrigerator which cost me RM38.
Haha..
Don't it sound CHEAP??!
Went to Seiyu bought some groceries and foods.
Started my first cooking day in Japan.
More to come, and it make me miss Kee Hui, Yong Tze, Thaya, Tze Yang!
Wow, no you all beside me, cooking is a bit boring..
I need Kee Hui's recipe, Thaya's curry and Yong Tze's help.
I'm lonely, so lonely in Japan..

Well, have to start write my diary..
No, not my own dairy.
It is my homework!
Ganbatte Yu Xuan!
Life is just start.
And I urgently need a church here..
Lord, guide me, I hope to find a church in Tsurumi or Kawasaki.

To be continue..

7 Days before off to Tokyo

Day before yesterday bought a winter jacket.
Finally......
After a 2 month waited for the 50% discount.
But still cost me RM350.. +.+

Yesterday bought a travel guide book.
Finally......
After went to 5,6 bookstores.
And I get it in Petaling Street.
what Popular? MPH? such a popular book also don't have.. =.="

Today going to continue knitting my scarf.
Finally......
I learn a new way of knitting.
After trying for so many times.. @.@

And,
Mostly..
Today Noxy Kawasaki will help me buy my camera too!
Long waited gadget...
I had decided to buy a D90 instead of D7000.
Simple reason, D90 cheaper RM1800!
It is not a small amount.
I can use this money to buy lens, and do a lot of things.
Hopefully can get it so that I can have my camera on the first day I reach Japan.
Wakaka... XD

Lastly,
Recently fall in love with green tea.
After ate the very tasty green tea ice-cream....
I love coffee, and I recognize coffee...
Japanese drink coffee in the morning, so no problem.
I like green tea as well.
Japanese drink green tea during their meal, so no problem.
I don't like beer and wine.
Japanese drink beer every night, BIG problem!!

When will I start to fall in love with alcohol??

Perfect is not easy

I thought I can buy a winter jacket today,
But eventually I failed to find a winter jacket in Malaysia!

3 reasons..
Design not nice
Price too expensive
No size

Am I too choosy?
Or....

A typical Virgo.

Now only hope that price in Japan won't too expensive..

Money Not Enough

Today went to shopping again. =.="
Spend another RM200.
Having meal in mall or restaurant is a waste!
I rather use that money shop.
Salary out on Thursday, and I had finish 1/3 dy.
And this coming Wednesday need to buy winter jacket somemore.
Another few hundreds...
Money where got enough...
I have to control myself when in Tokyo.
I want to hang out with friends that don't like shopping!
Save money, I want to save money!

Talking about money it remind me about the skiing trip.
The fellow who in charge for the skiing trip sial one.
Ask for 25000yen (RM1000) from us on the first day we reach Japan!
FIRST DAY!!
Yeah, good organizer!
I also not sure whether Toshiba will give us the allowance to us on the First day or not..
Sial..
Good organizer!

Another 13 days to go..
Time flies..

The 5 Pillars of Manhood

In our day an age most men are not men, they are boys. Most guys still want to marry their mom, have a women serve and take care of them, are not willing to take initiative or commit in a relationship, most men are still living in fear, not pursuing their callings for settling for “safe” because its easy. This is sad, upsetting and the standard must change.
Women don’t want to marry boys, they want to marry men. Women don’t want boys they have to put up with, clean up after and take care of, they want to be lead, pursued and taken on an exciting life adventure.

The 5 Pillars of Manhood…
1. Lead - A man must be a leader in a relationship, in a marriage, in a family. There are no excuses. A woman doesn’t want to make the decisions for her man, she wants her man to lead in the relationship. A man must take initiative. A man of God is leader, not a follower, a servant, not a slave, a hero not a coward. A man of God knows God and therefore knows himself. He should be the leader spiritually first, emotionally, mentally and physically he should set the standard for others to follow.

2. Protect - A real man of God will protect his partner. That means he is willing to lay down his very own life, needs and wants for the protection of the one he loves. Every decision he makes when it comes to a relationship has her protection in mind. A woman needs to feel secure, that she is protected and safe with her man. She doesn’t need to second guess, wonder if she will be okay, or have her heart and mind played with. A real man of God will not only protect his woman physically, but also mentally, emotionally and spiritually. He always has the highest good in his mind for her safety, well being and wholeness.

3. Provide – A real man of God will do whatever it takes to provide for his significant other. That means monetarily in finances, in basic needs and as well as what she desires. When a man asks a father for his daughter in marriage, the first thing the father will ask is, “How will you provide for my daughter?” Because part of being and becoming a man is providing for others, especially your wife and children. If a man can’t provide, he isn’t a man. God gave us hands and we must put our hands to work, no excuses to be lazy, God made us to rule the earth. Women are not be treated as toys, trophies or a luxury item, women are God’s highest creation, the very image of God.
I tell men all the time, “Treat your woman like a queen and you will live like a king.” Don’t be cheap brothers, you need to go all out when it comes to pursuing a woman. This is not a one time thing, but a continual practice. Women were created for beauty. They were created beautiful, to feel beautiful to be treated beautiful. You don’t handle a rose without care, it is the same with a woman of God, you treat her with the utmost care, honor and respect. Practically, that means you don’t take a woman to Denny’s on a first date, you take her to a place that hurts your wallet, but it’s worth it because she is worthy.
Also, men must also provide for women emotionally. When a women asks you, “How are you doing?” She is really asking, “How are you being?” Meaning, what are you feeling, thinking, seeing, being about at the moment. To love a women we must provide at every level – basic needs all the way to providing for them mentally, emotionally and spiritually, if not their hearts will die. Be a man, provide for your women.

4. Integrity – A true man of God is a man of his word. Too many men in our culture break promises, play with women’s hearts, date girls as if it was a game, and have no respect for women at all. This is disgusting. In old times, when a man said “You have my word!” that word was bond, it was as if an actual contract had been written, because your word was your reputation. How many men do we know today who say one thing, but do another? Blessings and curses come out of the same mouth. What comes out of our mouths determines what is truly in our hearts.
What a woman wants is a man of integrity. Someone who says what he does and does what he says. Someone they can trust at their word. So as a man you must come through. Words means nothing if they are not backed up with action. Don’t sorry unless you mean it. Don’t say sorry unless you are able to back up your apologies with doing the right thing. Integrity is doing what is right, whether people are watching or not. Integrity is what you do when no one is looking. Does your woman trust you completely? If not, it is a question of integrity. Don’t tell a women you love her unless your love shows, words carry weight. They either carry false weight or real weight, a woman knows when a man means what he says.
So live by your words, live by action, be a living proof of your values, convictions and commitments. Don’t get involved in a relationship unless you are sure this what you want and what God is leading you both to do.

5) Courage - A man of God is a man of courage, a man of adventure, a man who is willing to take risks and do the impossible. Men were born to live a life of great adventure. Men were created to fight battles. Men were created to rescue beauties. Men were created to live.
Sadly, most men are not living. Most men are cowards, fearful and afraid of failure. Imprisoned by their own thinking and what others think about them. Many men are just boys waiting for their mother’s approval, or the approval of others in society. Most men I know are people pleasers, not God pleasers. They are more afraid of how others may reject them or not accept them if they choose to take the road less traveled.
All men die, few men truly live.
Women don’t want nice guys or good boys, women want men on a mission, men on adventure, men who are dangerous. This is why many women are drawn to bad boys because bad boys live with a sense of risk, danger, mystery and unknown. Men were created to live fearless and to live by faith. But if you walk into a church today what you find are a bunch of boys playing with their toys, working at predictable jobs, and living boring lives. It’s sad, but most guys get their sense of adventure from playing video games or watching TV, what happened to our men?
A man of courage is someone who in the face of fear still chooses to move forward with trust in God, setting out to obey God’s voice at whatever the cost, because that is what matters the most. We need men who have hearts fully alive, hearts full of passion and are on a mission to change the world.
As a man, your goal is not how your woman can serve you, but how can you serve your woman? As a man, your goal is not how a woman can serve your destiny, but how can you do all that you possibly can to release the fullness of God’s glory and destiny in her.

Men take the lead, protect at all costs, provide in every way, live by your word and live a life of adventure with the Holy Spirit — obey God, not man and you will be the man of God you were created to be — and your woman will love you for it.


**Copyright of Pastor Jaeson Ma.

Some update of future life in Japan

So, here come to some update about my future Japan life.
Yesterday received the email from Toshiba and confirmed that I'll be stay in Tsurumi-ku.
With a very nice chinese name called 鶴見区.
Will I see a lot of crane over there?? haha..
Don't get frighten by this never see before name.
It's just 1 station away from Kawasaki(川崎) or 2 station away from Yokohama(横浜).
I bet you heard this two before right, Motorcycle brand and Battery brand, haha...
So Tsurumi should be quite happening I guess, ha...

The accomodation fee is ￥26200, which is equivalent to RM1000.
Exclude water bill, electricity bill, TV charges, telephone charge, Internet charge etc...
The room included a bed, table, 2 closet, one private bathroom, one shoes cupboard and balcony.
I like the private bathroom, haha..
I think this price is still ok la,
because rental fee in Singapre also around RM1000.

By the way,
Walk from my hostel to the train station will take 20 minutes.
Which I think is quite far.
So I plan to buy a bicycle in Japan, haha..
Typical Malaysian, LAZY!

Lastly, show u a google map about my hostel.

red colour is the hostel.
The blue colour is place of attraction...
Japan high school is also one of the attraction, lol...

Till then.

知我心者

我的部落格
不再是属于我的天堂
我的部落格
不再是我的避风港

原来
我也有
有苦说不出
的一天
好难受
难道你不能再是我的倾诉对象

是谁
犯的错

在最无助时
只有你
还在身边
默默陪着我

主耶稣
我无法不需要你

为什么
明天要有考试
让我无法花时间亲近你

主啊
好想好想你
想说
认识你真好

知我心者
你明白我的处境吗？

我的周末..僕の週末

周末
一个充实的周末
回到家乡
看看堂哥刚出世的女儿
和亲戚谈谈天
晚上去班台吃大排挡
随后便去爱大华见见朋友

贵花，惠兰
两年没见到了吧！
贵花果然变美了
不愧是5B的班花哦
啊哈哈。。。
婉清的脸却越变越大
幸亏昨天没有扮可爱
哈哈。。。
刘小姐
突然长高了
原来是
穿了4寸的鞋
还要谢谢她的礼物
ありがとう。。。
虽然
只聊了1小时
感觉还不错
爽。。。
美中不足
就是时间短了点

第二天
去吃莫珍歪招牌干盘面
哇
爽到。。。
还被我碰到我的老大
贞耀
我想也有两年没见了！
过后一起去找祯祥聊天
有聊了接近4小时吧
爽到。。。

想想
还有谁还没见呢？
去日本之前
KMPK四只粉肠
再出来聚聚吧！
好朋友不求多
好兄弟不求多
就少了Bryan一个
哈哈。。。
留着下次吧。
再到你家聊到半夜三四点吧！
（这可是我们的习惯啊，哈哈！）

怎样都要讲一下，
没日语的周末是天堂！

Finaly finish Intermediate Level...

Finally..
I had finished 50 Chapters of Japanese course.
Intermediate Level finish!
Monday start to move into Advance Level dy..
And today just finish the intermediate 3 exam..
But..

Honestly,
although I score A in my exam..
although my official level is in Intermediate 3..
But..

Actually, I'm still in intermediate 1 only.. =.="
I know how to do the question, but I don't know how to apply it..
When talking with teacher,
the sentence used is mainly from intermediate 1 only..
Hmmm...
How can I improve it??

Lord, bless me with Ur wisdom for U're the one who give wisdom..

Ski Invitation

Today received an email from Toshiba.
It was about a ski trip.
Or I should say, it's about a snowboard trip!
Because for those who don't know how to ski,
snowboard is much more safer.
This is what my Italian supervisor told me!

Now come into the topic,
yes, it do relate to Italy of course.

In last year March,
Mr Oo Yong Tze, or my roommate,
invited all of us (actually not all, is our gang, 6 person) went to ski!
And that night discussion was goes on with Italian wine..
Mr Oo Yong Tze insisted want to pursue everyone of us went to ski,
but all the end he failed.
And we chose to go another city in the South of Rome, called Napoli.
One of the reason not going to the ski trip is, it cost us RM300.
And we wish that our colleague (my friend's colleague, not mine) will bring us to ski, and save the transport fee.
But who know, at the end there is NO such invitation! haha..
Mr Oo Yong Tze, u're right, Tze Yang colleague was talking crap to him that day, haha..

Nevermine, at least I touch the snow in Mount Vesuvius..
And Napoli trip was a very memorable and fun trip for each of us..
Ooh no, writing until here,
I start to miss the day we had in Italy.
It was the best time,
not only because it was Italy,
is because the life there is too relaxing.
Waked up, went office, cooked dinner, watched movie, Sleep.
No need to think for other thing.
人生最大享受莫过于如此！
haha..

What happen this time?
Another invitation came..
And..

The price triple up!
Become RM900..
Mamma mia..
I guarantee u, if that time in Rome, the price also RM900,
we all would save the wine and cancel the discussion straight away.

This time, しかたがない (there is no choice),
And to make our lives look complete, skiing is a much.
So I decided to join this invitation!

C'est la vie..
C'est la vie..
C'est la vie..

Congratz to David! =)

Wow..My ex-colleague in Italy get married last week!
From the picture I can see the different between Italian wedding and Chinese Wedding.
Italian wedding seem like more simple?
No, i could not say like this.
Or I should say Chinese Wedding tend to invite a lot of 'strangers'.
Sometime people that u not even know throughout your life.
50 tables equal to 500 people.
A lot of times real friend only 3 tables.. =.="
Hmmm..
Just want to talk crap to make my blog longer, ahaha..

Anyway,
The main point is..

Congratulations and Happy Wedding to the bride and groom.
May the Lord bless them in their marriage and stay in love forever!
Viva gli sposi David!
My best wishes for U! =)

闲啊！

现在的我，
很想念以往的日子
以前读书读累了
可以和半夜三点和朋友去Lumut吹吹海风
可以和朋友去兜兜风
现在读书读累了
一只有电脑的陪伴

以前参加童军
最爽的时候就是
通宵谈天谈到天亮
我有几久没有这种经验了

现在
好想吹吹海风
好想有个好友在身边
谈天谈通宵

想说
现在的生活
变的忙碌
也
变得乏味

朋友
有空出来喝喝茶吧

日本語の練習 ３ (新しいカメラ)

最近ニコンは新しいカメラを発表した。
そのカメラはニコンD7000。
D7000の仕様はとでもいい！
39点フォーカスポイントはとでも魅力的。
一番新しいな画像処理の技術「EXPEED 2」もいい！
僕はとでも好きのに、値段が高い！
値段は￥125000ぐらい、大変ね！
ですから、買うかどうか、今僕はまだ決めない。
古いカメラ、D90は￥79000だけ。
￥46000安いね。


じゃ、明日は東芝の試験。
でも今まだ勉強しない、大変ね！
毎日勉強しているだけ、その生活はとても苦い。
誰か僕にきゅうじょする？
残念ね！！！
でも仕方がない、僕は勉強しなければならない。
頑張る！

Recently Nikon had announced a new camera.
This camera is called D7000.
Specification of D7000 very good!
39 focus point is very attractive!
Latest image processing technology "EXPEED 2" also very good!
I like it so much but the price is too expensive.
It is selling at RM4600, OMG!
Therefore I still not decide whether want to buy it or not.
The old camera, D90 is only RM2900.
Different RM1700 lei!

Well, tomorrow is Toshiba's exam AGAIN!!
But I not start to study yet!
Everyday study and exam, this kind of life is so bitter.
Anyone can save me??
I'm so pity...
But there is no choice, I must study.
Work Hard!!

Random Post

Can somebody use a bucket of ice to cool me down?!
I'm in the top of angriness.
One times..Two times..Three times..
I just going to MAD!

Shopping..shopping..Again..

Today I went to shopping in Isetan cause member day start from today!
There are 3 Isetan in Malaysia and I went to 2 of them.
KLCC, Lot 10 and The Garden.
So my 1st stop was KLCC because it's the largest Isetan in Malaysia.
I bought a purse.
A brand that I like much, called BRAUN BUFFEL. =)
Girls like handbag and their ultimate dream might be to own a LV bag.
Perhaps Hermes? Perhaps Prada or Gucci? Whatever la..
But for a young ladies, these brand are just a dream.
So they may lower down the target to buy Radley, Guess, what else?
I also don't know la.
My point here is, I'm just same with those girls.
My ultimate target might be own a Giorgio Armani purse?
Versace perhaps? I don't know.
Due to money issue, now I down my grade to Braun Buffel first.
Expensive but I like the design so much.
It look like this.






After that I went to Lot 10 bought a brazer.
G2000 blazer is just too expensive.
So I bought a blazer from SEED.
Also expensive lei.. =(

And then I straight away head toward Mid Valley.
I went to Jusco first, and bought a jacket again.
(I have bought 3 jacket in 2 weeks time).
After that went to Isetan, saw another SEED blazer.
Much cheaper than I bought one!
Ooh..Heart was bleeding.
I felt like want to buy one more,
because it was so cheap and left last one.
But at the end I didnt buy.
I remembered what my Japanese teacher told me yesterday.
He said, Malaysia's blazer was so cheap! But the design is old fashion!
I admit that I'm a person who care about fashion as well.
Although not too much, because no money to care too much.
But I do care a bit la..haha..
So I decided go buy it in Japan next time. =)
Ooh ya, I bought a shirt in Isetan Garden too.
So today I totally spend RM750!
I consider save money already.
I had calculated,
If no discount, I would spend RM1100.


My Toshiba's allowance all finish already,
And I not yet buy the main thing, winter wear!!
Hmmm..
I can buy the purse although it look like a bit waste money.
But I will feel happy when I see it.
But I won't buy the same amount of winter jacket in Universal Travel or Winter Time,
simply because it didn't worth it.
And I won't happy when I wear it.
Now I'm waiting the Jusco day.
Hopefully the jacket that I target for (RM700) will further discount until 50%! Haha..
Then only I will buy.
If not then go Japan only buy lo.

Another thing that I would like to buy is 'working bag'.
Today saw one bag with 70% discount.
But the design is definitely uncle type!
RM550 after discount also hundred plus only, cheap neh..
PVC one also need RM100 la.
U'll choose design or quality?
Hmmm..Headache..

日本語の練習 ２ (ビールを飲んだ)

今晩僕とオンさんとむこだ先生はLittle Ballyでビールを飲んだ。
僕はビールがあまり好きじゃないけど、すぐ日本へ行くから、今練習しなければなると思う。
今晩は初回マレーシアのレストランでビールを買った。
僕は2本ぐらい小さいのTigerビールを飲んだ。
でも、僕はまだビールがあまり好きじゃない。
それはいいか、よくないか。
僕もわからない。

Tonight I went to Little Bally drank beer with my Japanese teacher and friend.
I no really like beer but since I have to go Japan soon so I think now I must start to train myself.
Tonight was the first time I ordered a beer in Malaysia's restaurant.. @.@
And I drank 2 small bottles of Tiger beer.
But I still don't like beer！
Hmmm..this is good or bad huh?
I also don't know...

Shopping..shopping..

Today went shopping again, but alone..
I do enjoy the shopping time alone..
This make me think of the time when I was still in First year..
I'm crazy on shopping.. @.@
Now I'm much more better,
No longer spend that much of money, haha..
Ooh ya, I'm talking about shopping alone..
I don't know what is ur purpose of shopping.
U may enjoy to see the new arrival thing,
U may enjoy hanging out with friend,
U may enjoy buying thing,
U may just enjoy lingering around.

Whatever is the reason, my shopping reason is very simple, BUY thing.
Before I go shopping I usually will have a target that I want to buy,
So when I reach the shopping mall,
I'll straight head toward the right place to get the right thing.
Therefore, I enjoy shopping alone.
Because..
I no need to go to other place that I don't want to go.
Wherever I want to go, just go.
Whenever I want to leave, just leave.
I do enjoy the moment when I bought the thing I want. =)

Well, today went to buy formal shirt.
But all the S size sold out dy!
What the hell, so many skinny person in Malaysia meh!!
Anyway, I still bought 2 G2000 shirts.
The shop very good in marketing,
put the "Buy 2 and get 50%" or "Buy 2 at RM128".
This is the reason I end up buying 2 shirts which one of the design is not that nice.. @.@
Now still thinking want to get the Padini shirt or not.
Because only 1 design that I like.
Buy 2 at RM128, sien la...
But I think I 'll just go to get it tonight or tomorrow.
si dan la..


*****

Today I saw my Adidas shoes in one of the Sport wear shop.
Design is same just colour different.
Guess what,
the price is RM270! Somemore new arrival..
OMG.. I got mine in 50%..
Haha..
爽到! =D

日本語の練習 1 (買い物する)

Today, I want to train myself, write a blog in Japanese..
Here it goes...

今日私は友達とSummit USJで買い物に行った。
私たちの目的はAdidas Outletで靴を買った。
店で靴は安いし、それにすてきだ。
でも、私だけ買った。
靴はRM132だけで、David Beckhamさんの靴だ。
とでもいいだ。
私はずいぶんすきだ。
あの店の人はそれはマレーシアで捜しじゃないと言った。
すできですね。
それから、私も一枚ジャケットをかった。
このジャケットはとても安いがデザインがきれくない。
RM32だけ。
日本でそのジャケットはよくきると思いから、きれくないもう大丈夫だ。
私は日本にいるとき、日本ですできなジャケットを買う。

Translation..

Today I went shopping in Submit USJ with friends.
Our purpose was buying shoes in Adidas Outlet.
The shoes in the shop were cheap and nice.
But only me alone bought the shoes.
The shoes only RM132 and was David Beckham's shoes.
That's so good.
I quite like it.
The people of the shop told me that this shoes can't be find in Malaysia.
So nice.
After that I also bought a jacket.
This jacket is very cheap but design is not that pretty.
But never mine because I think I'll wear jacket quite often while I'm in Japan.
When I'm in Japan only buy the nice jacket.


*****
Walauyeh!!!!
What is this?!!!!
After I translate only I knew..

Damn, this is such a boring + weird essay!
Hmmm...Funny man...
More to come, see whether my grammar got improve or not.. @.@

I want go travel !!!

When you are still a student, you have no money to travel.
But when you are a working adult, you have no time to travel.
Now what?
I'm half studying half working.
So, I have no money + no time!!
Arrggghhh!!!
C'est la vie..

Hmm..

Recently really want to go travel leh!!
But air ticket is too expensive dy.
Air Asia go Taiwan or China also need around RM800.
But MAS got promotion leh, go Japan only RM1600.
Go Seoul also RM1600.
So attractive neh..
Somemore go Italy RM1800 only(but need to fly from bangkok).
So cheap!

Sigh..Surfing too much airline website..
Now have to back to my Japanese book..
Because tomorrow still got Second Toshiba Global Exam.
C'est la vie.

Wish me luck!

累

我发现
渐渐的
我忘记了
学习的目的
这让自己觉得好累

今天
我要让自己
回到学习的正道
享受学习的过程
加油！

Flash Back of My Uni Life

Finally, it was my turn to go up the stage of DTC.
Finally my convocation came yesterday.

At this late night,
I flash back my Uni life.

Remembered when I first came to UM,
I'm a guy full with vision,
full with vision for God.
But a guy who not really want to study.

I don't know what is the reason I was so lazy during my first and second year.
Because of the UM academic system?
Because of the temptation around me?
Because I was free from anybody control?

I was not so sure.
I just knew that, I poteng all the time.
For me, attended or not attended the lectures were the same.
In fact, it was.
Until now, I still think the same.
U can't imagine how serious am I until u read the sentence below.
After one sem or one year(forgot dy, most probably is one year),
I only realize there were someone called XXX,YYY,ZZZ in my class!
I'm not talking about Malay, I'm talking about Chinese.
Can you imagine that? =.="

Most of the time I didnt do my tutorial.
Most of the time I attended lectures also talked with friend the whole lectures.
Most of the time I only studied at the study week.
And I still remembered I used one night to study my MOM subject.
Somemore that time addicted to PC game, study half hour played half hour.
Suprisingly I got an A- too.
But I'm not that lucky all the time.
What you sow is what you reap.
I never get an A in my mathematic.
Not because I don't know how to do,
just because I didnt do enough exercise.
What a shame to me..
And as a result, got one semester I got a CGP of 3.03!
I can never forget, because this cost my RM33k!!

I very actived in church that time.
I joined ministry, I joined Campus Crusade, I joined Cell Group, I joined disciple group, I joined bibile study, I joined many Christian activities.
All these activities mentions above were just within one week time.
And this also caused me a very inactive person in my college and uni.
I only joined one activity in my college, one activity in Engine faculty and one whole campus activity within four years time.
Am I regreted?
I don't know.

Time flies..
Things started to change when I was in third years.
I realized I was too lazy.
I started to study hard.
I quit Campus crusade, quit disciple group, quit any Christian activity in UM.
I knew that I have no time for such activities.
After the internship in Italy, I studied even harder.
Everyday also study, without failed.
As a result, my results improved obviously every semester until my last semester got a full As result.

But this time I really regret.
I regreted I started work hard only at my third years.
And it make me can't graduate with a distinction honour.
The most important thing is,
now I have to pay back my PTPTN which is RM30k. T_T

Although I didnt do very well in my academic,
but God still bless me.
I get the internship in Italy.
And now I get a job in Tokyo.
Although the salary is not very very high,
but I'm glad that I can go Japan.
Since my first year,
I had aimed for oversea internship and oversea career.
I never thought I can has my internship in Italy which is a country I never dare to thing about.
And I never thought I can has my first job in Japan which is the world's second largest economic country.

Although there were some defects in my uni life,
But since this two main objectives had achieved and it was beyond my imagination,
Therefore, I can't ask for more.
I can only give thanks and give thanks.

Last but not least,
I would like to thanks all the wishes and presents from my family, friends and coursemate.
It is my honor to meet you all in my life.



******
Yesterday should be a happy ending.
But life is full with problems.
The reason I'm still online, writing such a long blog,
is because I'm unhappy.
I love and enjoy the total tranquillity in the late night.
May be this is the only time I can escape from all the troubles.

Unpeaceful feeling

Friday I heard that 12th College in UM got people fall down from 5th floor and death..
Today I heard that my hometown got people got murdered..

Suddenly an unpeaceful feeling appeared.
Oh Lord, Love cast away fear.
In You, there is a peace.

Today, let me draw closer to You.

倒数日本。两个月。

不知不觉，日语课已经上了一个月。
时间真的过得好快！
这种有点令人喘不过气的生活再过两个月就结束了。
这也意味着，我在马来西亚的日子也是剩下两个月了。
突然之间，有些不舍得的感觉！

我以为，我可以走得很潇洒。
我以为，我不会对这里怀念。
我以为，我讨厌这里的种种。
我以为。。
这一切都只是我的“以为”。

原来，我不可以走得很潇洒。
原来，我仍就会对这里怀念。
原来，我并非讨厌这里的一切。
原来。。
我现在才发现我的“原来”。

马来西亚，
虽然政府一塌糊涂，
虽然对待从不公平，
虽然虽然虽然。。
写到这里
发现到我讨厌马来西亚
就只因为两个字，
国政。
就是不想活在被国政执政的国家里。

但。。
这里令我太舒服了。
这里的一切都是那么的熟悉。
这里的一切都可以是很随性。

Hmmm...
我还有多少的时间能陪陪我的我的家人，
见见我的朋友呢？
也许就三年吧，
我会回来。
希望当时的马来西亚，
是一个令我愿意回来的国家。

試験、試験、試験。。

I thought after my last final paper on 27 April, I had said さよなら to exam.
But who know after that in the Japanese language course, every 2 week got one exam.
Now I have more exam than ever before! =.="

Use 2 week time to finish the whole semester course in UM, NVM..
Every 2 week got one exam look like UM final exam, NVM..
Almost every day got some small test, NVM..

NOW..

Now suddenly come out one Toshiba EXAM!!!!
Mamma Mia..
Somemore is like an international exam.
Because Toshiba employees from 6 nations will take the same exam!
I think is same day as well... @.@
Ok this one also NVM..
And my 先生 said, last year Malaysia student result is in TOP 10.
Wah, want force me learn japanese also no need like that la..
Global exam + Top 10 target..
Stress neh..

Philipine gia had started the lesson on April.
Singapore gia is attending advance class (bcz they are advance student).
Taiwan gia knew Japanese before.
Malaysia gia, habis, mati..

But after all,
It is all good.
It make me feel like for sure I'll become a very good Japanese speaking person in future, haha.. =P
Ooh God, give me strenght to continue this learning journey.

がんばって ください。
東芝の試験、大丈夫。。

Inception

After a two weeks of boring "Japanese" life,
finally there was something light up my life today.
My Japanese class + Toshiba gang went to watch a movie called Inception.
I never heard of the movie before,
since everybody is going so I also join in.
Surprisingly, this movie is extraordinary interesting.

At the beginning, it was quite hard to understand what the movie was going on.
But as the story went on, the secret slowly unveiled..
Interesting and meaningful part slowly to appear.
For me, it's something like Matrix,
it's something u need to understand only can enjoy the movie.

Anyway, don't miss it!
..INCEPTION..

无聊的生活

每天早上起身
来到日语班
听一大堆听不懂的语言　
看一大堆看不懂的词句
用日语回答老师问题时
说一个字停两秒
伊伊诶诶 嗯嗯哦哦
音调走到完

回到家对着电脑
玩玩面书
看看新闻

然后对着日语书
不断复习
不断阅读
不断记录重点
读到三更半夜
然后又不断忘记


这种生活过了一个星期
无聊至极
一点娱乐都没有
可怜的我
还要面对两个月

我还不是上了贼船
叹息

My Japanese Class

Finally my Japanese class started on yesterday.
So I would like to share the condition of my class.

Firstly, all my sensei are Japanese.
Emm..This is quite good la, ha...

Secondly, all my sensei 99% speaking Japanese and communicate with us in Japanese.
Walauyeh, u thought I learnt Japanese before meh?!
Bla bla bla in front of me, but i dont understand a single word!
先生、わかりません。
Wanna ask question also don't know how to ask.. =.="
Is it effective by using this method?? Let's see..

Thirdly, all my sensei thought us very "pannai", they teach so fast until u lost urself in the class.
Yes, I'm attending an intensive class, but it is really very intensive!
Finish Hiragana in 40 minutes then second day give spelling pula.
Phiew, luckily I learnt Hiragana at home before, if not sure die.

Fourthly, all my sensei give so many vocabulary for us to memorize.
Walauywh, one day around 100 new vocabulary, u thought I'm God ar?!
先生、私わ神でわありません。

So far write until here first, going to continue memorize my vocabulary.
Later still need to watch World Cup ooh.
I'm damn hardworking, haha..

Move to the Casa Tiara in Subang

Just now went to take the key of the Casa Tiara.
Toshiba gave us 4 units in total.
2 units studio, 1 unit 3R2B and 1 unit 2R2B.
There is one girl among us so definitely she will take one studio,
So left another studio..
Actually plan to stay at the studio,
but too many people want to stay at studio..
So end up stay at th3 3R2B unit.

When I said I want to choose studio,
another 2 friends also want it..
So I just give up my way for them to choose..
In this world, if you don't fight for the thing u want,
u'll just lose it immediately.

I'm thinking, am I right to give up the house at the beginning?
I lose what I want..
Or think oppositely,
am I too selfish to fight for the house?
This is a realistic world,
I personally think, we should fight for the thing we want.
Others won't pity at you or be thankful to you if you don't fight..
And at the end u urself is being a loser.

From now own, I think I should change..
In the condition of didnt hurt anybody else,
I'll fight for what I want.
Sorry for being realistic, because this is a realistic world.

By the way, I'm still happy with the current room.
The main point is not I can't get the studio,
the main point is I learn a lesson today.. =)
Or I should remember what my supervisor told me,
I couldn't ask for more.
This is good enough for me, be thankful.. =)
Here I come Casa Tiara.. =)


***p/s: just a little more, I just got to know Toshiba is going to pay me RM85 per day. Woohoo... =D

Random Post

3 days later have to attend the Japanese class.
But I havent finish learn to the basic hiragana and katakana.
Hmmm...Now still try to finish the hiragana part..

Just wondering how much allowance Toshiba will pay us for the class.
If follow the guideline Toshiba send to me, it will be RM40 for 4 hours class.
And RM85 for a more than 4 hours class.
My class is 4H and 20min..hehe..Will they pay me RM85??
ahaha..seen like impossible..
But my future colleagues in Singapore get paid $90 per day!!
$90 compare to RM40..
Sien..... =.=

Another thing is I went to Nikon Centre at Times Square two day ago.
Played with Nikon D90.
Nice camera...
My heart is very very very itchy now.
Planned to get it in Malaysia.
Hmmm..Should I buy now or go Japan only buy leh??
My original plan is buy at Japan one.
But after touched the camera I think I can't wait anymore.
Regreted going to Nikon Centre dy.....

So I went to survey the price at Low Yat.
Damn, Low Yat cannot one la.
All the store look like tipu orang punya.
RM3300 free 4G + NOT nikon original bag + lousy tripod.

Finally I found one shop in Sg Wang offer me
RM3300 with 4G + Nikon original bag + Tripod.
I think it's quite a good price.
Hmmmm...

Arrivederci Italia

Arrivederci Italia..
Goodbye Italy..

Italy had been send off from the World Cup!
Hmmm..
World champion and 1st runner up can't make it into round 16.
This is called football!

I not really a football fan.
But I started to take note on the football news after I backed from Italy.
I don't have my favorite team.
But I do support few teams in world cup.
I support Argentina, Brazil, England and Italy.
I like Argentina because of Messi and Maradona.
I like Brazil because they are the best team.
I like England because they are the most famous team.
I like Italy because Italy used to be my second home.

Hmm..
There is a song called "Arrivederci Roma".
Today I would like to sing Arrivederci Italia.
Ciao ciao mio amici..
My heart is still attach to you!

Hmmm...

I dreamt about Yanzi for 2 day.
I seldom have this kind of dream.
I not really think much about this.
I don't know why I had this kind of dream.
And I understand this when I read the blog of Yanzi...

Again, I miss the opportunity to meet with Yanzi!!
Yanzi was attending an event in Singapore yesterday.
And I'm planning to go Singapore this week and most probably tomorrow..
Why I didn't notice this event earlier?
Why?? Why?? Why??

It prove that I not really following up in her news,
which I thought I was..

Sad, sad for not being there to support her..
Sad, sad for not being there to witness her 10th anniversary..
Sad, sad about myself..

I guess I will have a gloomy day...

Congratulation to my Cousin!

Last Saturday was my cousin wedding.
So..Congratulation to my cousin.
Wish them have a happy life and stay in Love always.. =)
The Bride and Groom are always the 'bellissimo' person in the world.

Anyway, I'm glad that through my cousin wedding,
I got the chance to gather with all my relative.
Enjoy the moment we share together.
I knew we don't have many opportunities to stay together,
So I really cherish the time we have together.

Another thing is,
I think I had made up my mind to own a DSLR.
I really wish that I can use a good camera to capture down every moment of my cousin wedding..
But I don't have..
I don't want to have this kind of regret in my life again.
When I buy, I want to buy a good one, haha..
Now i'm thinking should I buy in Malaysia or in Japan..
Hmmm..

日本..依旧是我的梦想国度

为了让我更了解日本，
我下载了许多关于日本的旅游影片。

日本，还真的是一个浪漫国度。
许多美景，许多特别的地方。
尤其是和心爱的人一起共游日本，
甜蜜又浪漫..哈哈..

别于罗马、弗罗伦萨与威尼斯的沧桑，
别于巴黎的华丽。
别于英国的高雅。
日本是一种贴近大自然，有时尚感的国家。

好想赚多多的钱，来一个日本浪漫之旅。
吃好的，住好的，玩好的。
用缓慢的脚步，感受日本。
应该是不错的，哈哈.. =)

不想来也匆匆，去也匆匆。
但前提是，我要赚$$$。
去了日本，
我要如何善用日本这地方，
来赚$$$呢？=P

Ooppss...怎么就只有$$$啊？
有人告诉我，有钱的定义是什么？
有钱就是你买东西时，不需要思考。
我想，这还蛮有道理的嘛，哈..


**亲爱的，去了日本，还有什么所谓浪漫之都是你我的目标呢？
维也纳？希腊？留着下次吧.. =P

I want to go World EXPO!

I heard people talk about it many times.
I heard my cousin and my uncle are going to the Expo.
I knew there is something BIG.

But I have no idea about it.
Just until the Open ceremony of the Expo.
OMG..It was great!

When I visited Paris and read about the history of Eiffel Tower,
I knew that it was built to celebrate the Paris Exposition.
But I don't know the Paris Exposition is the World Expo!
What a shame... +.+"

Same thing happen in my thesis.
I read about Rudolf Diesel test his Diesel engine in Peanut Oil in Paris Exposition!
What a great EXPO!

OMG..I want to go!
I really do.
Can I?
Anyone want to support me financially? lol... =P
I wonder how many days I need to spend inside the EXPO.

Dreams...Dreams...Dreams...

Singapore trip = Library Trip

Jz backed from Singapore. =)
Singapore is not a foreign place for me.
I had visited almost every interesting places in Singapore.
Except the new Universal Studio and Casino, lol..

This time, a four days Singapore trip is pretty simple.
I spend time in house and library!
Yes, library!
I'm such a hardworking student.
Ooppss, forgot dy, I'm no longer a student, lol..

Singapore library was such a great place to study!
Million of great books were inside the library.
It was simply amazing!
At first, I plan to find Popular to read book,
but the library was ten times better than the Popular!
The books there was much more than Popular!

I went in library at 10am and came out at 6pm.
Really read quite a number of books throughout these few days.
Read about History of Rome, Venice, Biography of Michelangelo.
Some information about Tokyo and etc..

I realize one thing, I really can't read English book!
Once I open the book, 20minutes later, I definitely will feel sleepy.
And I have to read it very carefully, read word by word.
If I just see through the sentences, I just can't get the meaning of them.
OMG...My English is POOR!!
Really have to work hard on it.
Hmmm.. =(

Anyway, I love the library..
I plan to go Singapore once again.
Just to visit the library again.. =)
See you again Singapore.. =)

Some Beautiful Advices

Finally, I finished my exam.
Although the final exam look like have some silly mistake,
but I really hope that I can still score an A in my vibration!

Here I announced that I'm unofficial graduated!
What I need to do now is..
Prepare my thesis presentation, submit it by tomorrow.
Go to have a nice hair cut.
Go to a nice movie (Ip Man 2 or Iron Man 2).
Go to have a nice meal.
Go to have a nice date, haha.. =)

Then,
Go to Singapore on Sunday, haha.. =)


Well, that is just my appetizer, now let go into the main course,
The beautiful phrases or advices.
These are taken from an article I read in Yanzi's blog.. =)
I found it meaningful so posted and share with you guy.

First is talking to myself and my fellow coursemate and university friends.
You don’t need years of education by the best minds in Malaysia to prepare you to be average.
Don't live your life according to boundaries set by average people.

Second is talking to myself and those guy who are in love.
When you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument.
Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance.

Third is talking to myself and everybody.
One does not have to be evil to be hated.
It’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions.
It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions.


Fourth is talking to myself and everybody.
Be wary of the truth.
Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences.
It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

Vibration vs Yanzi??

I suppose to study Vibration tonight..
I suppose to put more effort on the most difficult subject in Mechanical course..

But...

I spent the whole night download and watch Yanzi's video clips.
I told you, I'm so enjoying it..
haha.. =)
Suddenly I miss you again, Stefanie..

Vibration vs Yanzi?
No, Vibration will only grab my energy away..
Yanzi is the one who give me more energy, haha..

Looking forward to see you again..
米修米修... =)

Integrity

I remembered my cg leader Shao Hen told me that,
What can hold you, sustain you when you're in high position is..

INTEGRITY!

Is it??
Integrity??
How about the election in Ulu Selangor?
Bribery on the public with RM3 Million is integrity?

I'm thinking,
If a person come to me with a RM3 Million..
Will I compromise??

Integrity, are you exist?
Are you is the key point to sustain a person when he/she is on high position??
I'm doubting..
Kamalanathan..
Such a nice name..
Hantu also can go in Parliment..
Becoming Hantu is integrity??
Malaysia Boleh, One Malaysia!

I Simple Arrest, don't arrest me..

Random post...

Yesterday night I met a couple from England and had a short conversation with them.
They told me CHCKL is the only church they can find in the internet!
Wow, I can't believe that!
And I'm so proud to be part of CHCKL.
An excellent church who always do thing so professional!

It make me think that I'm in an international church!
Just like what happend in Rome, I found my church online.
And every week church got new member from various part of the world.
Because internet provide the information and lead those people come to church themselves.

Same thing happened to CHCKL.
As a security, I always be the first person the people will meet before enter the church building.
So many foreigner will ask,
"Is it CHCKL?
Wow, finally we found it!"

Anyway, I'll leave the church vey soon.
I dono what church will I attend when I at Japan.
Hmmm...
Nvm,we have internet who provide everything, haha..

初恋红豆冰

今天和家人一起看了《初恋红豆冰》。
一部不错的电影，
少许的搞笑，
少许的感动，
少许的感触...
加起来，就变成一部有意思的电影。
绝对推荐！

突然觉得，梁静如变美了。
也是第一次觉得，她还蛮美的，还想多看她一眼。
也觉得，张栋梁还蛮帅的嘛，虽然只出现那一秒钟。
哈哈...

也觉得Botak没能和打架鱼告白，是种遗憾..
活在世上，别让胆怯的心成为我们的绊脚石，
酿成永远的遗憾。

Don't take me for granted.

Please, never take me for granted.

The feeling is not good.

As a friend, I would like to help,
but it doesn't means you can take me for granted.
Sometimes a simple "thank you" will be pretty good to me.

Thesis..STILL..in progress....

Talk about Thesis, I got 2 things want to say.
Firstly..
I'm grad that I can have my title is about Biodiesel.
I'm glad that I can success produce coconut biodiesel.
I'm glad that my knowledge about biodiesel have increased much much much more.
I'm glad that my thesis is actually quite meaningful.
I'm glad that my supervisor is not that strict, actually is very cin cai, haha..
I'm glad that I learn a lot in my thesis.

Secondly..
I'm not happy witht mechanical lab..
Said repair the diesel engine until today not finish reparing yet.
And bcz of that
I force to use a lousy engine which exhaust pipe is bocor one.
I force to breathe in all the exhaust gas for 14 hours! W/O break!!
Can u imagine u stand behind a bus for 14 hours?!
The lab all is smoke!!
Until my cloth become black, really very black.
Until my masks become black, really very black.
Until my nostril become black, relly very black.
Until my hand, my neck, etc all become black.. >.<
If there are poeple who die or kena cancer because of thesis, I'll be the first!

I'm not happy with mechanical lab..
All the emission analyzer broken!!
Send to repair for months still can't fix it!!
I force to CHANGE my title YESTERDAY because of that!!!
Can u imagine that??
U're very happy u almost done the experiment and report is 70% done.
Then suddenly the equipment still under repairing.
You force to rewrite ur report, start from 40%.
You need to re-read many many journal to write the report!!
OMG, how many journal I still need to read!!
OMG, left 3 days need to submit the report and my progress is only 40%.
And I just want to find the journal and read by now!!
****Faint****

I'm not happy with Hakita Engineering Company.
My progress is so slow, all because of them!!
Lousy company, very lousy company!!
Said 2 week can deliver my material, then 6 weeks only reach!!
Said can come to teach me immediately once I have the material, then after 1 week only come!!
Who know come here just start study and learn how to do the experiment!!
Walauyeh, this one also call "teach" ar?
Nevermine, Read read read, study study study.
After a whole 12 hours experiment, you said experiment fail!!
AARRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!
Mamma Mia!
Nevermine, then promise me find the solution for me.
Until now, Missing dy!!
Luckily I become smart, find the solution myself.
DONE, I successful produce my own biodiesel without any guide from other!
You, Hakita go back kampung tanam padi!
So called engineer wor..Please, don't relate you with my course!
Make me malu only..
And the engine exhaust pipe is broken also don't want fix!!

I'm not happy with chemical department.
Don't talk about the chemical lecturer again,
Prof Masjuki said she know nothing. =P
Ya, I really not happy with her.
Another thing is, the cost for doing the experiment in chemical department is DAMN EXPENSIVE!!
Flash Point, one sample RM100.
Sulfur Content, one sample RM200.
I got 16 samples, can you imagine how much money I need to spend??
Same faculty what, still charge so expensive meh?!!!
Want do until like that meh??!!
Chemitry Science only charge me RM40 for sulfur content, and Calorific value is FOC somemore!
Different faculty, same apparatus, same experiment, 5 times cheaper than same faculty.
The world is turn up side down?
This is not include the troublesome procedure in chemical department, sien.. @.@

DONE..

Finish expressing all my anger..
haha..

My life is still good because I learn for not treat other so bad like what chemical department and Hakita treat me.
My life is still good because I still love my thesis.. =)

Have to continue, find journal and read..T_T

You Chemical Department, go away from my life!

Today is the first day of UM EXPO.
UM EXPO is an exhibition that exhibit the researches done by student in UM.
I joined this EXPO as well.
My purpose of joining this EXPO is because I want to get a certificate.
I'm using my thesis title to participate in this EXPO.
This UM EXPO got judges came to judge your research.

Well, let cut the story short.
Today a chemical engineering department's lecturer came to judge my research.
She said some words that I felt being offended.
She said, "You're not producing biodiesel".
I answered, "Yes, I prodouced biodiesel, Coconut Biodiesel".
The she replied in a not friendly way, "Why you want to produce Coconut biodiesel? We have it in our market, you can just buy it. You're just wasting your time producing it".
I explain and then she keep saying the same thing.

I felt that my hardwrok of producing biodiesel is not being appreciated.
In my heart,
"Your chemical department not even finish fixing your biodiesel equipment.
I really want to see, and VERY interested to know what biodiesel you will produce when your equipment is finish being fixed.
Don't tell me your student is going to produce Palm Oil Biodiesel!!
Even jatropha biodiesel, kernel biodiesel, whatever biodiesel that exist in this market!
You're good, let see whether you can come out a new type of biodiesel, may be Mango Biodiesel!
And if your student produce Coconut biodiesel, I'm going to F**k you off Gao Gao!!
Malaysia government only producing Palm Oil Biodiesel, I went to produce Coconut Biodiesel you said I waste my time.
In addition, Coconut biodiesel is much more better than Palm Oil Biodiesel.
Japan have Toyota, then you should go to ask our former PM why Malaysia still want to produce low class Proton."

In bet in my heart, If I said i didnt produce biodiesel then she will definitely stick to her first point, "You're not producing biodiesel".
I think may be she is not friend with my supervisor, haha..

****Finish story....

Chemical department is really a lousy department.
I go to apply thier lab to do some testing,
then they asked me go here, asked me go there,
find this lecturer, find that lecturer, and I will never find those lecturer..
find this lab assistant, find that lab assistant,
write this letter, write that letter..
make me fed up!!

And then I went chemistry department in Science Faculty,
one letter, very fast, straight can do all the experiment that I want to do.
And send a very nice and friendly staff to assist me.

Same faculty still want to "play so many patterns", still want to have so many unneccessary procedures..

Since she came from Chemical department and make me beh song, so I going to shoot chemical department gao gao, haha..

So call "hardship" in Italy

Today is Earth hour day in Malaysia.
Last year, I had it in Milan, Italy.
And today my friend mentioned about the train station incident we had in Milan.
Hmmm...It was a disaster to us..hahhaaa..
People only see my travel photo in facebook..
but all of you don't know the hard time I had when I was in Italy.
So, today I would like to share the hardship I had/we had during my 6 months internship in Italy.

1. Overnight at the railway station in Milan.
My friend Thayalan put his bread and toothbrush beside him while he was sleeping on a chair. The railway officer came to him and thought that we are beggar or people with no place to sleep. The whole night they keep disturbing us and made us can't even sleep well. Sigh, overnight in a cold railway station with no water, sleep on chair was pity enough, somemore misunderstood as a beggar by other...

2. Overnight at airport in every country we visited.
Since the flight was at the morning, so we decided not to overnight at hostel and sleep in airport.
London, Madrid, Paris...

3. 6 months time didn't have a haircut in salon.
Since I want to save money, so I myself became a barber.

4. 6 months time didn't have a proper dinner at restaurant.
Everynight cook myself. A person who only knew to cook maggie mee have to cook 3 dishes and 1 soup for every dinner. Cook until don't know what to cook, cook until no more idea and keep cook for the same dishes for 6 months.

5. Never have a proper meal while travel.
The only food we eat is McDONALD's. And the only burger we order was cheese burger which cost for 1 euro. Never had a BIG MAC McValue Set. Only burger!! Somemore need 3 burgers.. >.<

6. Cheap is the main priority.
Bought mineral water, chose the cheapest one. Only 0.18 Euro for 2 liters.
Bought cookies, chose the cheapest one. Have to really calculate the price/gram.
Bought Body Shampoo, chose the cheapest one. Only 0.99 Euro for 1 liter.
Bought Ingredient/food for cooking, chose the cheapest one. Potato cheap, everyday potato.

7. Never buy the bus ticket, became an illegal customer for 4 months.
We only bought the monthly ticket for first 2 months. But after that my friend get caught because our ticket was student ticket which was not eligible for us. Since that day, we all didn't buy bus ticket but everyday still using bus as our main transport. This is called illegal customer for 4 months throughout the Italy. From Venice to Milan, from Milan to Florence, from Florence to Rome, from Rome to Naples, from Naples to Palermo. Everywhere we went, no ticket please, save money.

8. Being treat like an "Indonesian worker".
Same in Malaysia, we all scare of Idonesian worker. When you are alone and got 6 Indonesian worker walk toward you. You also scare right. This is what we experience in Italy. Just the role are different. This time we became the Indonesian worker.

So far so good, I still alive.
I still love Italy and miss Italy life.
Haha...I tell you, It's not easy man. =)

Italian Song, La Solitudine

After the whole full day facing my thesis..
Now I would like to relax for a while..
listen to some nice songs..
Hmm..life is still not too bad, haha..

Today I would like to share one nice Italian song here.
People said spanish is the most romantic language in the world.
Italian also not that bad actually.
If spanish can rank no.1, with no doubt, Italian can rank no.2!
Listen to the song, feel it, haha..
Name of the song is "La Solitudine" by Laura Pausini.
(Actually she also sang this song in Spanish, called "La Soledad".)

Here is the lyric..

*******
Italian lirica
Marco se n'è andato e non ritorna più
Il treno delle sette e trenta senza lui
È un cuore di metallo senza l'anima
Nel freddo del matino grigio di città

A scuola il banco è vuoto, Marco è dentro me
È dolce il suo respiro fra i pensieri miei
Distanze enormi sembrano dividerci
Ma il cuore batte forte dentro me

Chissà se tu me penserai
Se con i tuoi non parli mai
Se ti nascondi come me
Sfuggi gli sguardi e te ne stai

Rinchiuso in camera e non vuoi mangiare
Stringi forte al te il cuscino
Piangi non lo sai
Quanto altro male ti farà la solitudine

Marco nel mio diario ho una fotografia
Hai occhi di bambino un poco timido
La stringo forte al cuore e sento che ci sei
Fra i compiti d'ingliese e mathematica

Tuo padre e i suoi consigli che monotonia
Lui con il suo lavoro ti ha portato via
Di certo il tuo parere non l'ha chiesto mai
Ha detto: "un giorno tu me capirai"

Chissà se tu me penserai
Se con gli amici parlerai
Per non sofrire più per me
Ma non è facile lo sai

A scuola non me posso più
E i pomeriggi senza te
Studiare è inutile tutte le idee
Si affollano su te

Non è possibile dividere
La vita di noi due
Ti prego aspettami amore mio
Ma illuderti non so

La solitudine fra noi
Questo silenzio dentro me
è l'inquietudine di vivere
La vita senza te

Ti prego aspettami perché
Non posso stare senza te
Non è possibile dividere
La storia di noi due

La solitudine fra noi
Questo silenzio dentro me
è l'inquietudine di vivere
La vita senza te

Ti prego aspettami perché
Non posso stare senza te
Non è possibile dividere
La storia di noi due
La solitudine

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Translated English lyric (of cause not by me, i'm not that pro, haha)
Marco's gone and won't come back
the train of 7:30 without him
it's a metal heart without the soul
in the cold of the gray morning of the city
At school the bank is empty, Marco is inside me
his breath is sweet between my thoughts
enormous distances seem to divide us
but my heart beats hard inside of me

Who knows if you will think of me
if with yours you never speak
if you hide like me
you escape the looks at you

Locked in your room and you don't want to eat
you hold your pillow tight
you don't know what you're crying about
how much more pain the loneliness will make you feel

Marco,I have a picture of you in my diary
you have the eyes of a child a bit timid
I hold my heart tight and I feel you there
between my English and Math homework
your father and his councils that whisper
him with his work has taken you away
for sure he's never asked your opinion
he said one day you will understand me

Who knows if you will think of me
if you will talk to your friends
to no longer suffer because of me
but you know it's not easy

School is too much to bare
as well as the afternoons without you
studying is useless
all I can think of is you

It isn't easy to divide
our life
I beg you wait for me my love
but to deceive you I don't know

The loneliness between us
this silence inside me
is the inefficiency to live
a life without you

I beg you wait for me because
I can't stay without you
it's not possible to divide
our story

*******

An email from Rome

Today I recieved an email from my supervisor in APS Engineering Company Roma. =)
It's great can receive his email!
And I felt warm while reading the email. =)

Ermm..I'm a person who not really good in socialize.
Therefore I not really build a very strong and good relationship with my colleagues.
But I respect everyone of them and I love them.. =)

My supervisor said that "Toshiba is a great company and I think you could not ask for more!"
Hmmm..This is a word of wisdom.
People always up, look for a better thing, look for more.
That's why we will never satisfy.
Current satisfaction is only a begin of next un-satisfaction.
but today my supervisor remind me that, I should satisfy with my current condition.
Yes, I could not ask for more!

Honestly, after get the job offer from Toshiba, I was happy.
But I'm thinking, will I get another better job offer?
Hahaa..
But today, I decided to stop think like that!
Thanks Fabrizio for remind!

And I want to mention again,
I felt warm while reading the email. =)
Really happy to hear from him and hope we can meet again in the future. =)


Last but not least!
I never never never expect that my supervisor actually read my blog!
I still can't believe that..
Because he didnt have a facebook account,
so impossible he knew my blog url..

Or..

May be.. may be other colleague show him my blog.
But I also never never never expect my ex-colleagues to read my blog!

Or..

Whatever is the reason..


Ooh Lord, It's my honor! =)=)

Thesis Thesis...Biodiesel Biodiesel...

NOW..

My eye will only focus on one thing,
My mind will only focus on one thing,
My heart will only think on one thing,
My time will only use for one thing,
My energy will only consume for one thing,

That is..

My thesis--Biodiesel!!

After read so many journal, report, internet information, books and etc etc etc...
Finally I fall in love with my thesis.
I felt that what I did here is really meaningful.
I'm going to produce coconut biodiesel by transesterification.
Coconut biodiesel, one of the most powerful biodiesel.
I found it interesting because no body did this in UM before.
No student ever produce biodiesel in UM before.
So I have to study study and study.
To find the correct way to product it!
Failed many times..time run out..
But still excited about it.

Today only I realize what I did is not something that 'rubbish'..
Indeed Prof. Masjuki is great, although I only met him less than 5 times within one year.

Anyway, I'm going to continue on producing my coconut biodiesel later.
Hmmm..Hopefully..I really hope that I can success by today as three week later need to submit report already..
My progress is still ZERO!!
Study Study Study and bless me ooh Lord...

Thesis..Ooh my thesis....

Now is 6am, and I'm still awake..
Trying so hard to find solution for my thesis..
My thesis title is about "Performance and Emission Characteristics of Diesel Engine Fueled by Mixed Biodiesel Oils".
Wow, sound cool right!
haha..

3 weeks later, I'm going to submit my thesis report,
but guess what,
My progress is ZERO!!
Phiew..
ZEROOOOO!!!!!!
What am I doing in 3 months time?
First, I'm waiting for the lab to complete its renovation.
*2 months, since last year december

After that I'm waiting for my coconut oil that will be used to produce coconut biodiesel.
*3 weeks!
(The company that recommened by my lecturer, Hakita Engineering Sdn Bhd promise me will give me the coconut oil within 2 weeks so I wait lo..but at the end said at least need 5 weeks!
Wasted my time for waiting the oil.
Then my friend found another company, can straight get the oil!)

Then I need to wait for the methanol use as a reactant while produce the biodiesel.
*6 weeks!!
(no choice, can't find another company, so still have to wait for Hakita...@.@)

And then I need to wait for Hakita's engineer to teach me how to use the machine to produce biodiesel. (Because no body know how to use it)
*1 weeks

After ran the first experiment,
mana tahu experiment failed!

The engineer also dono how to exactly produce the biodiesel!!!!!!!!!!!!
BOMB....Bomb....

Hmm...
I decided not to depend on other, I will solve my problem myself.
Today I'm going to do the experiment, God bless me..


Lessons that I had learnt!
1. Never depend on other to help me, Depend on myself.
2. Never wait for the solution that offer by other, find the solution myself.
3. Never have business with Hakita Engineering Sdn Bhd in future, irresponsible compnay.
4. Never be a lousy engineer like engineer from Hakita.

Unfair Treatment

Recently 12th college wireless speed is quite fast.
Finally I can download movie inside my room. =)

Not because UM upgraded the wireles system,
but is because all my neighbours (student who used to stay same floor with me) had moved away.

Before that I also quite curious, why they suddenly disappear?
Until today only I knew the reason...
This is because they're going to further thier studies in JAPAN!
May be you will think, how great is that!
May be you will say, I hope I can get this offer.
But if you're Chinese, very sorry, this golden opportunity is only available for Malay.

Hmmm..
Should I happy due to the fast wireless speed?
Or should I disappointed due to the unfair treatment between Malay and Chinese?

I tried so hard to fight for my first job in Japan.
But they can just go Japan like this.
Hmmm..Malaysia, are u truly is 1 Malaysia??

Irritating Post

Let talk about LOVE here..

I have a friend said:
"I'm so good, why no girl want me?"
"I'm so desperate for the love!!!"

My friend comment and said:
"He's taking up his machine gun, shoot whoever down!"

My opinion:
"Wah, u desperate is ur problem, don't post in facebook let the whole world know what."
**Girl, be careful of these kind of guy.
What he need is non other than just a girlfriend.


Hey, you..you..you and you..
Please stop posting all ur 'love note', 爱的宣言 in facebook lei..
Honestly, I felt very irritating about that..
I believe no body would like to see ur 爱的宣言..
And for those who already have girl friend or boy friend,
Please la, u want to date, go out and date..
Don't date in facebook.. =.="
Don't darling here darling there,
love you here love you there,
miss you here miss you there.. @.@"

If you want to type out,
got handphone gua,
send sms can??
Or u can create a blog between both of you.

Ya, I care about u and ur relationship because we're friend.
I would like to hear from you time to time.
But I definitely not interest in ur 肉麻情话.
Everything have a limit, you can write it,
but don't make it OFTEN...

生命应该思考的问题

今天我照常听唐崇荣牧师的讲道。
感谢主，从他仆人的言语中间，我学习了一些功课。

唐牧师提醒了我，时间是与生命并行的东西。
我需要抓紧我的时间，做有意义，做最重要的东西！
我现在要做的就是，
学习，不断学习。
装备，不断装备。
研读神的话语，不断研读。
趁我还年轻的时候，做年轻时该做的东西。

唐牧师也教导了我，
我的理想，不同于理想的我。
我的理想：我是主体，理想是从我产生出来的，我只看未来的发展合不合我的胃口。
理想的我：是我这个我，应当怎样才算真正合格。
我相信，很多人都和我一样，拥有理想。
拥有我的理想！
但今天我要思考，理想的我是一个怎样的我呢？
我又应当如何将我的理想，和理想的我混合在一起呢？
感谢主，让我还没去日本之前，
还没达到我的理想之前，思考如何达到理想的我。
好让我在他日成功时，依然没有背弃理想的我！

求主怜悯，继续引导我前方的道路。
从今天到日本工作还有7个月或大约210天。
我要在这210天当中用神的话不断装备自己，
好让我成为一个有思想，有智慧的人。
在面对日本这个人生地不熟的地方，我仍然能够活出荣神益人的生命。

My Feeling toward My Cellgroup

Recently I blog about Toshiba a lot.
Now have to blog something else.

Well, recently I keen on listen to Rev. Stephen Tong's sermon.
Such an amazing servant of God.
I think, so far he is the greatest pastor that I met before.
Who can compete with him?
Perhaps, he is the most powerful pastor among all the chinese pastor.
I gain a lot of knowledge from his sermon and begin to realize my weakness in Christianity.
Today I would like to make a commitment,
listen to one sermon each day!

Another thing is about my cellgroup.
The journey of cellgroup in my life is very complicated.
From Wan Yeng cg to Monica cg to Lee Lee cg, now combine with Shao Heng cg pula.
But I still under Lee Lee.
Hmm..I'm not that close with her.
And I felt she also not really want to get close to me.
I don't know why.
Until now, I still miss the time when I was in Monica cg.
I can join in current cg, talk to the members but I failed to talk to Lee Lee.
We are just a very normal "hi-bye" friend.

Do you really know what I meant over here?
She is my leader, I suppose very close to her.
But we are just a "hi-hye" friend.
This is a very serious problem.
Because of that, I don't feel like going to cg.
I felt that our relationship is very fake.
I go there simply to "appear" myself in cg,
SO THAT,
She can take my ATTENDANCE.
What is the problem man?

Do you know how we communicate?
She sms me said tonight got cg, then I reply that I'll be there.
The only time she sms me is on Wednesday evening,
because cg is at 8pm.
Now she even not sms me already.
I'm totally fine with that.
Because I'm not a new member, I will go to cg automatically.

When I go to Japan interview, I told Monica.
She still give me response.
I strongly believe, if I tell Wan Yeng about my interview in Japan,
she will also give me responce.
But when I sms Lee Lee,
Sorry lo, no reply lo.
Everything not about cg or service attendance,
very sorry, will never get a reply.

When I back from Italy,
She said I can actly go to another cg.
But I said I want to stay in her cg.
Simple reason, I want to support her.
Hmmm...

What else can I say?
Yesterday got cg, guess what?
I didn't go.
I choose to stay at my hostel worship God and listen to Rev. Stephen Tong's sermon.
I knew christianity is not about one person, but about relationship.
But I think I'll grow more in this way then pretend go to cg.


Lord, I'm hunger for Your Word.
Fill me and Lead me.

Embrace Change

I suppose to blog about this topic a month ago when Keith preached about this in church.
For me, this is an important message that warned me i can't stay in my comfort zone any longer.
I need to step out, enlarge my capacity and embrace change.

Keith said, the degree of our Transformation is determined by the degree of Willingness in us to embrace change.

Today, I want to ask you one question,
Are you still stay in your comfort zone?

Do you heard people said, I'm happy with my current life, I no need change.
Normally this word is come out from a person who is naive in his mindset.
Grow is a necessity in our lives.
Every living thing and non-living thing in our life grow.
BUT,
If you don't change, how can you grow?
Grow here not means in side but in mind.
One important fact is, we can't expect a different result by keep doing the same thing.
We need change, change to become a better person!

Today, let embrace change together.
Don't think, let ACT!

Making decision

Life is about infinity choices..

Choose to live..Choose to die..
Choose to love..Choose to hate..
Choose to give..Choose to keep..
Choose to believe..Choose to not believe..
Choose to be bless..Choose to be curse..

People always want to make a correct decision.
But which one is the correct decision?
I have made the greatest and best decision in live by chose to believe in God..
I almost fall down in this journey..
But I need to get up and continue walk..

Today, I made another decision..
I chose Toshiba..
The first question is What will I get??
The second question is non other than What will I lose??
I chose Toshiba, means I need to let go of oil and gas industry..
But If I didnt choose Toshiba, I'm not guaranteed will get an oil and gas position..

I hope I have make a correct decision..
I hope I have chose the blssing not the curse..

Lord, continue to look after your son in his journey..
Hope I can continue this journey together with you and give all glory to YOU..

Focus on right thing..

Focus..I need to be Focus..

Like i said before, my original purposes of Toshiba interview were because I want to gain experience and get to the final interview at Japan..The reason is because I want to visit my dream country for FREE!!

Well, I had achieved those purpose.
However, Now my ultimate goal is get the job in Japan!!

First time visit the best country in Asia, Japan..
I'm very excited!!
But let not go there with a wrong purpose, with a wrong heart!!

I need to adjust my mood, so that I can focus on the interview, not Japan!!
My main purpose of this trip is get the job, not just go there and play!!

Calm down and be focus..concentrate on my dream..

CHEAP UM Chinese, 5th college resident, chemical department student..

Remembered the I wrote about my jacket being stolen in previous blog??
Last time is Malay..

BUT..

This is is CHINESE!!
What is this, somemore is one of the chinese that I knew..
Some more stay in 5th college, same college with me for 3 years..
Some more study at same faculty, luckily is CHEMICAL, not mechanical..
Some more act like nothing happened..

Story go like this..
And I cut it very short, ha..
My friend's Laptop screen was broken by his roommate!!
When he went out for meal..
Boom..Pecah, screen pecah...

Can u imagine how cheap is that person??
CHEAP CHEAP..
SUPER CHEAP!!!
Come on man, ooh sorry, he's not man..
Come on boy..
What happened to u..
I dont blame you to act it secretly, because u're a little BOY..
Please dont admit u're a MAN.
Male by Birth, Man by Choice.
You just chose to become a BOY.

BUT..

Please, U're chinese, U're going to be an Engineer..
I felt shame to know this kind of people in my life..
Luckily I'm not that close to him..

My friend still can bear it until today..
If I were my friend, I'll quarrel and fight with him..
RM400 gone like that!!
Everything have a limit, I think that boy just cross the boundary..


Sigh..
Poor Steven..
Vaffanculo Kenli Chooi..